completely twisted

Are you FLIPPING kidding me!!!??? this is a legit website that i went to today to find a hoodie vest and THIS young lady is the model! she looks absolutely on her death bed and they are having her model an everyday cloth item. they are saying to look like this is NORMAL. it's NOT normal and it is outrageous to me that our world is this sick and twisted. they should be sending this girl to get immediate help, not giving her a flipping pay check! I am passionate about women and their bodies and how the world has destroyed what is realistic and what the definition of HAPPY is. it is NOT this! it is not. I have friends fighting for their lives with deadly eating disorders, and while they are in treatment holding on everyday with what strength they have left, what functioning body parts and brain they have left that has been starved and tortured. People actually have the audacity to display these women as models, who are dying with every picture taken. they are not selling clothes, they are selling death robes. it makes me absolutely FURIOUS! it is so incredibly terrible, and i pray for this woman, that someone in the pathetic, disgusting world of modeling will open their eyes and step in and actually help her before it's too late. the people who use her as a model to sell their clothes are complete scum bag monsters and women every where are killing themselves because of people like them. It is NOT a game, or a woman to look at who wears designers clothes, it is not just a picture or an advertisement.. it is a LIFE, it is a SOUL, a Human Being! And America's fashion industry and pop culture are murderers.

Facebook ruined my blog

Lets be honest, i used to be an avid, up to date blogger... but i didn't have a facebook during all that time. i caved and i decided to get one about a month ago and.... now as you can see, my blog is failing miserably. so let me give you a little update on my life this past month or so.

First off: my little brother Nate got his mission call! to Salta, Argentina!

I got a tattoo...

just kidding :) it's Henna.

I bought lavender seeds and am determined to grow them the traditional way. WJ says "plant, then puppy, then baby."

Got into a fight with my new friend Amanda... a flour fight that is. obviously I lost.

I have been working on this drawing, its got a ways to go, but after i am finished drawing it i am going to transfer it onto a large canvas and paint it. I LOVE art! it has become my guilty pleasure that i will hide away all day long in my apartment and just paint and draw and paint.

My sweet Grandma is preparing to go to heaven... then she will be able to be free from her tired, frail, bed ridden body, and she will be able to dance and talk and smile again. I love her so much.

I got a new pet. his name is Henry and he loves me.

Drank me some Pina Coladas in St. George with my girls

Had many many long conversations, laughs, cries, picture messages and text messages shared between my Bestie Kate and I. I don't know what i'd do without her. She is a one of a kind friend who reminds me of my potential and strength anytime i ever forget it.

I got stitches in my back! OUCH! the Dermatologist removed a cyst (he thinks, but now they want to know if i have been traveling anywhere foreign or slept outside recently. uh? what are they implying? i don't really want to know.. gross) good news is it's not cancer :) phew!!!!

Shout Out

And, if a certain person is reading this, as i know she does from time to time... a person with red hair who is one of the 3 people I love and look up to the most in this world. If the woman who taught me that i have infinite worth, courage, and potential is reading this. She who taught me to never ever quit or blame circumstances around me for my quality and happiness in life. Who loves me exactly as i am and helped me to finally start to believe that I am enough, and enough is everything. who let me cry to her and she would just listen with eyes so full of compassion, charity and sympathy. The woman who was one of my angels that allowed God to not have to worry about me, because He knew i would meet this SNOW one day and that I would be in good hands and that all would be alright because of her influence. If she is reading this, know that I love you. and I miss you every single day, sometimes so much that it is a physical pain in my chest. But that i always remember what you said to me, how you are with me always even if your physical body is not. You make me happy L.S. and you are a face I see standing over me with an outstretched hand to pick me back up whenever i get knocked to the ground. The spirit of the law L.S... you never leave my heart. I am greatness because you showed me how just by loving me. You know who you are you tall red headed soccer playing, sweet voice, loving, late night talks in your dwelling place in the basement, dog lover person. if you ever wonder if by doing what you do, you have ever made a difference in someone else's life, a very real difference, know that you have very much so in at least one life. You da bomb and I am grateful for you every single day.

not smart

Here is my beef with smart cars. first off, look at the size of them. enough said. second off, i am terribly nervous for the poor soul who gets rear ended in one... it will be like someone kicking you in the back of your movie theater chair with the force of a Viking. and third, and my least favorite characteristic of these children's toys is when you pull into a parking lot, and you spot the golden parking spot. you are almost giddy with excitement because every spot seems full, but no, not the beauty you have spotted near the entrance. You smile up at Zeus and thank him for your luck. You go to make the wide angled turn to pull in and.......psych! slam on your brakes pal because you aint getting this parking spot. you were deceived by the midget who clearly does not belong with the big boys. and now you have to reverse in frustration while the toy just puts it's rear end in your face with smug pride.

I obviously have had frequent bad experiences with this poor excuse for a car.

(nothing against the people who are inside, just the car itself- we don't quite see eye to eye. pun.)